Who/what was your gay awakening?

WikiPandaDancer490
07/04/24 8:02am
What was the moment things clicked for you and you realized you were 💅? Who was it that made you feel feelings? I'm so curious to hear people's stories!

WikiLlamaGlider700
07/04/24 4:08pm
My friends and I randomly watched Van Wilder back in high school (any national lampoon fans here?), which led to Ryan Reynolds being my first gay crush. I think it took me a while to know that I was gay because I'm attracted to people of all genders, so it was easier for me to "default" to liking girls and fitting in with the heteronormative "boys like girls" thing for most of my childhood.

It took a lot of soul searching and exploration for me to figure out my sexuality. At different points in my life, I've thought I was straight, gay, bi, and pan, and eventually I realized that trying to figure out the exact specific term wasn't working out for me. Queer is an umbrella term that feels most comfortable to me
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Jessica Swenson
Community Psychologist & Licensed Clinical Therapist
07/05/24 8:21pm
The thing about sexual orientation and preferences is that they are subjective to the person that's experiencing them. There's not a clinical test for being gay. It's just how you feel, and it can change every day, so go with whatever identity feels right for you. It's generally not a good idea to try to come up with a black and white term for every possible sexual identity a person can have.
WikiZebraCaster991
07/06/24 6:34pm
I was watching Pirates of the Caribbean and could not stop thinking about how hot Jack Sparrow was! Now I have a thing for pirates
WikiCloudWhisperer256
07/07/24 5:56pm
My gay awakening was/is my best friend. We're still bffs and I haven't told her about my feelings. Every day when we hang out at school I feel like I'm hiding something from her by not telling her that I like her but I also don't want to ruin our friendship by telling her and making things weird between us. I really don't know what to do because I don't want to lose her :(
Anonymous WikiCaribou
Anonymous WikiCaribou
11/09/24 12:39pm
tell her.
Anonymous WikiChinchilla
Anonymous WikiChinchilla
11/12/24 9:39pm
Tell. Her. (I did that with my bestie and we’re still the best friends eva)
Anonymous WikiOwl
Anonymous WikiOwl
11/13/24 4:30pm
Mine is practically the exact same story :(
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Kateri Berasi, PsyD
Licensed Clinical Psychologist
07/07/24 7:52pm
As a starting point, it can be helpful to have discussions with her about sexuality and desire in a more general sense. This way, she will become aware that you are interested in same-sex relationships and/or sexual activity, and hopefully, you can get a better sense of her own interest. If after talking to her you still don’t have an idea of what her feelings and opinions are, be honest and open up about how you feel. Trust that the strength of your friendship will help you work through any difficulties that may arise.
Anonymous WikiStoat
Anonymous WikiStoat
10/25/24 8:29pm
I have always been a definite tomboy, and after a while, I realised that I definitely acted like one. I also felt like I was more into girls than boys, and had a crush on a girl in my year. I'm now dating my cis female best friend as a non binary person !
Anonymous WikiDolphin
Anonymous WikiDolphin
11/03/24 11:45pm
First it was a girl and then Billie Eilish
Anonymous WikiFlamingo
Anonymous WikiFlamingo
11/07/24 2:24pm
My friend in 5th grade during a sleepover. She was my first gay crush but I didn't know what it meant at that point. I think I've kinda always felt gay, just I needed more time to explore
Anonymous WikiLlama
Anonymous WikiLlama
11/08/24 12:23am
Random chick who appeared in my 4th grade speech therapy class one day & I never saw her again. I ain't even religious but I think she was a messenger of god forcing me to admit it to myself. Anyway I'm a guy now so... Okay bonus story: Before I was a guy, in the summer before 5th grade I thought I was a lesbian (didn't use that term tho, that was probably a Sign^tm) but then I saw Edward Elric from fma and I was like "0-0 dang" so yeah edward elric turned me bi
Eli_Is_GAAAY
11/09/24 1:39am
So, I guess I've ALWAYS been LGBTQ, but I never had a word for it when I was younger, because looking back on it, I was in no way straight. I'm shocked it took me so long to find out though. One of my first LGBTQ crushes was actually one of my closest friends back in first grade, but I didn't realize it at the time.
Anonymous WikiCave
Anonymous WikiCave
11/10/24 6:01am
I realised that I was jealous of my gay friends on sleepovers when they would cuddle together lol. Then I realised guys were ICKY and girls were slay :3
Anonymous WikiValley
Anonymous WikiValley
11/11/24 2:13am
I'm genderqueer (they/she). Any advice on coming out?
Anonymous WikiPanda
Anonymous WikiPanda
11/11/24 9:18pm
So I use to take a bus to school and their was always this girl on it at first I didn't think she was attractive but she was pretty so she was always on this bus and we also went to the same school she was one grade above mine so I saw at school I saw her in the bus so at some point we ended up talking and I found that she was every interesting and we had a lot in common I didn't know when I started finding her attractive but it were the little things that made me realize like looking at her lips while she spoke or smiling whenever someone mentioned her name their I knew that I was in love with her and I wanted her to know so I told her and started dating but it only lasted 6 months until she moved and we lost contact and the spark since then I've never found any men attractive
Anonymous WikiChinchilla
Anonymous WikiChinchilla
11/13/24 12:14am
I grew up in a Christian Baptist family, went to church from childhood, attended Sunday school, went to Christian events, and so on... I was soaked in religion from head to toe and could not even imagine that I could be gay. Plus, I live in Russia, where LGBTQ+ propaganda is officially banned. that is, it is clear that society could not influence me in any way. I realized this when I first felt some strange feelings for a guy. not understanding what it was, I was scared. I was 16 years old at the time. However, that guy also had something for me. We met at a school camp and became very good friends. we exchanged social media and even chatted, but then he stopped responding to me... for a long time I thought about him and didn't understand what was wrong with me. I asked God for forgiveness, I asked him to take away all these strange feelings, I tried to lose them myself. but in the end, nothing worked out. very soon I'm 18 years old, but I've never felt this way about any girl. It is still difficult to realize who I am. Am I really not going to be able to love a girl?

P.s. I wrote this using Yandex Translator (Russian google)
Anonymous WikiMongoose
Anonymous WikiMongoose
11/14/24 12:14am
Feel for you, man. That sucks...(

I'm in same predicament myself. I tell myself that I have to stay closeted. Otherwise all my life and my social status will be crumbled. I'm sure, the second I come out, there will be hell to pay in this country.

Since I realized myself, I've gorwn to have a secret crush on my hetero best friend. (We're bandmates still, he's a drummer, I play bass) We used to sleep-cuddle in bed during sleepovers, quite nice feeling. But nothing more than spooning, I suppose. But now we're not so close since he got our mutual friend pregnant.

Sooo, I'm a mess emotionally. Spilling my guts out on wiki-how comment section...

Gotta stay alive, find any snippets of joy in this existence. Confide in closest friends.

Stay strong, I guess
Anonymous WikiFawn
Anonymous WikiFawn
11/14/24 6:18am
i'm so sorry you have to stay closeted! it's awful that you have to hide who you are and i wish things could be different for you and your friend

homophobia sucks but at least we're all bonding together in this wikihow comment section 🥹
Anonymous WikiTapir
Anonymous WikiTapir
11/13/24 2:41am
Well, basically when I was in 4th grade I started liking this girl, so I was pretty confused. Then, I realized I had a crush on Paris Jackson (mj’s daughter) and then Billie Eilish
Anonymous WikiOwl
Anonymous WikiOwl
11/13/24 4:34pm
I was at school and I had a friend who was constantly asking me if I was lesbian/Gay and over time I began falling for her. I've now had a crush on her for two years but haven't been able to come out or tell her I like her. Seren if ur reading this, I really like u. L x
Anonymous WikiWombat
Anonymous WikiWombat
11/14/24 8:08am
I was reading a comic on my phone then a gay guy was shown then thought it would be nice to have a husband...

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