So every once in a while I actually wake up to reality and I’m like woah it’s not good you know. So right now I really need to get better I got pretty good grades this year nothing lower than an 80 and My parents said that “I have so many gaps in my knowledge” so they made me do summer school I missed the first day because we were on vacation and the teachers posted so much work I had to write multiple papers and I had so many calculations it was ridiculous and I can’t back out now and the work is way too complicated for me and I don’t know if I can wake up tomorrow morning and go on camera in front of 20 other people. The class starts at 9:00 am and I’m doing Geography, history, English, french, science and math. I feel like I’m failing and I’m turning into the exact person I told myself I wouldn’t become. What do I do? And this is only in the first year of high school it’s gonna get a lot worse from here and I don’t know if I can keep up with all of it.