Lost in my mind, I am swarmed by my thoughts, Incessant thoughts spinning around me like a tornado of worry and doubt. Bumping me left and right, up and down. I dream of a mind as peaceful as a meadow, as clear as a river, as calm as a lake. A mind where my thoughts flow easily, where my thoughts don’t bombard me but inspire me. Instead, I am in the middle of the traffic of my mind, thoughts like cars rushing by, or completely stopped. Thoughts that cause me to curl up and hide. I grow exhausted from the constant train of judgement that has no purpose but to hurt me. Thoughts that hurt me. My own thoughts hurting me. When will I be able to control my own mind? When will peace fall upon my eyes? I long for that clear river in my mind, where worry washes away clean and hope springs forth. I take a deep breath and try to fall into a deep slumber, like I am falling from the sky. Falling away from my thoughts and into an abyss of freedom from myself. But once again, I am lost in my mind. Thoughts swarming around me, thoughts forever consuming me.