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I’m sorry about yesterday. I… I don’t feel the same anymore. I feel guilty. I’m sorry. What do I do at this point, I just soiled everything… all because of one dumb comment. I know what I did wrong. I know I should’ve just… *sigh*. I just… this is all because of me. I have just let everything out and lost control, all for what? Another penalty. Yeah… what is wrong with me? I should’ve just went on with my day, forget about it, but no. I had to do that and ruin everything. Nobody likes me anymore. I just let out a big fuss. I thought I improved. I thought I did… I guess I just lied to myself. I did this to myself. It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have done that. I hope someone can forgive me. Anyone. I don’t even care if it’s a vandalizer that forgives me. I don’t care if even a robot forgives me. I just want people to know, that what I did was stupid. I should be punished for this. I’m sorry you had to read this dumb comment. I just needed to get this across. To leave this burn at bay.

I tried so hard… I just wanted to help, to make people’s lives easier. Now look at me. What did I end up doing? Nothing. I just turned up here, ready to help people, and now nobody wants me here anymore. Now that I think about it, IDK if any person is going to forgive me. But who cares? At this point, I’ve ruined everything. I’ve gotten my stupid reputation back. I don’t care if someone tries to change my opinion, but I will just say it now: I feel less welcome here now. The main reason why I joined in the first place was to have fun. To feel more useful. I don’t see any big means of having fun now. This has turned into a burden. I probably will still have this green website at the back of my head nagging at me even after my apology. I bet none of you, not even my ex-friends will forgive me.

I don’t know why you are still reading this. I don’t see any reason why are would want to keep reading, most people would probably see this as an excuse. As a coverup. As a useless rant. I don’t even know if you ARE still reading this. But if you are, what are you doing with yourself? You could easily go around, patrolling wikiHow and stuff, and you’re wasting your time reading this? Yeah, what the heck. Well, I guess since you are so persistent, thanks for reading? I just wanted to get this stupid nagging out of my head, and I guess that has happened.

What can I do to have you guys forgive me? For @Steve5 to forgive me (probably an out-of-reach goal)? I have realized that he was just trying to have fun also, but here I go, ruining his day and revealing what I thought was the truth but was instead some dumb conspiracy I came up with because I am a gosh darn nerd. Or geek. Whatever I am. Probably am known as a gossiper now. I don’t know why, but… no, I can’t. I have to prove I can be useful. I have to prove I’m not a useless, mentally insane piece of rotten flesh. I am not quitting. I am not going back to vacation. I am sitting on this chair and I am going to continue editing with shame and sorrow. I need to prove I am not going to back out of things all willy-nilly like this. I don’t care anymore. Oh, someone wants me gone forever? I don’t care. I want to prove I can change. No, I don’t want to. I need to. Let us all shove my mistake in my face, and then forget about it. That would be good not only for me, but for you, the reader. Thank you for sitting through this and looking at the result of me pressing random buttons to make text on the screen. I hope one of you, ANY one of you, can forgive me. Gosh, I sound so much like Bill Clinton right now.:confused:

Well hey, one person thought the argument was entertaining, and I now feel better about myself, so… that’s good I guess…

Oh, you didn’t know about yesterday’s whole incident? Crap. Things just got awkward.:confused:

I am still kinda nervous about posting this, but… here I go anyway, pressing “Post Discussion”. At least I’ll let the world know I’m sorry.

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And just as I expected, no comments. No questions. No forgiveness. That’s okay; probably never going to return to the forums anyway. (at least I don’t think so, IDK maybe I might)

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Seriously? Nobody even cares I tried to apologize? What in the world…

I put in the effort of writing this long thread and trying to apologize to my fellow wikiHowians and they’re just going to ignore me? Did I just waste almost an hour trying to type it in, and waste an entire 24 hours for my block to expire?

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@JustJoshua

I have no idea what’s going on or what happened yesterday but please try to calm down. You posted this thread just a little over an hour ago. Perhaps no one is online looking at the threads. I’m sure they will forgive you. Just please take a breather and give it some time. Okay? 

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Ok… maybe you’re right. Maybe they don’t know this thread even exists yet. Well, I’m willing to wait.:slight_smile:

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Of course we forgive you, Josh! Let’s just put the incident behind us now, and forget about it?:slight_smile:

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Atleast you’ve gotten everything off your chest now

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Well, I guess the word hasn’t spread of what you did, because I have no idea.

Pull it together, we’re all a big family!!!

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I will say that I saw a gist of what happened - I wasn’t online when it occurred, but I understand where you’re coming from. I know it’s probably not right for me to say something, but I had this feeling that I should. Like I said, I wasn’t online when it happened, but I’m sure everyone forgives you, my friend (or at least some people). I know I would forgive you had I been part of the situation. You say that nobody likes you anymore, but that’s far from the truth. We’re all here to support you. And the truth is, if no one else is going to say they support you, they still care. Just know that I’ll always support you - and that makes at least one person. I understand why you feel this way; I oftentimes feel the same way myself. Letting others know how you feel can help make things better, and I want to thank you for being brave enough to post this. You were one of the first people I met on wikiHow. When I was a newbie, I was still learning and experimenting with how everything worked. You were willing to help me out. You even came up with my nickname, Helpie! I know there are tons of people, online and off, that care a lot about you, Joshua. If you’re willing to put this all behind you, they will be, too. I’m glad you’re still going to be editing. That makes me happy to know that you aren’t leaving, because when I saw that you might, I’ll be honest with the fact that I was sad. But reading that you’re still contributing relieved me. I’m happy that you’re here to stay, at least for a little bit longer. I guess what I’m trying to say is that it’s okay. I hope you can understand all of this. ~Helpie~

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I never really saw what went down (and wasn’t really involved), but I WILL say I do relate to this. I’ve made many mistakes and torn up friendships on here by saying some of the rudest stuff, and yet the one thing I could count on (though not always) was people eventually forgiving me for them, as is happening right now with you. I’ve moved on from them (or at least, I’ve tried to), but sometimes it still lingers as if people still don’t want to speak with me after the fact and it’s kinda depressing. It’s kinda why I took an 8 month hiatus off of here, just to try and move on from everything and put it behind me. Enough with that. As everyone seems to be saying it might be best to put this behind us and focus on us being a family (I might still be stupid for using this thread space to write the above but whatever, it’s out there).:slight_smile:

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Yeah, that would be a good idea. Let’s just forget about it. It’s in the past now, anyway.

Oops, I went to edit out my comments in the argument when they were already removed by the admin. Thank you, whoever did that.

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Not a problem. Glad to hear you’re doing well. Sounds like nobody wants to see you leave and we all appreciate your company quite a bit! Hoping you continue to stick around.

Just a note for this thread, probably best to avoid the specifics and rehashing of the argument;- just consider it an event from the past and let’s move on, as others have said. :) 

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I agree. I kinda don’t want to bring this up. 'Tis the time to move on from that anyway.:slight_smile:

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Oops, sorry that I didn’t post earlier. I rarely check the General Chat section, so…

But of course we forgive you.:slight_smile:

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If it has anything to do with me, I forgive you. I am glad you have moved on and I hope the past doesn’t depress you. Anyone who feels sorry for their mistakes, should be happy and not always sad about it. God bless you Daniel.:slight_smile:

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Thanks Vish!:slight_smile: